Monday, October 25, 2010

At least we won!

The weekend was good! Managed to get quite a bit done of the things I have been putting off for a while, tidied garden, cleaned chickens, cut logs, played with kids etc etc.

Saturday night was a bit torturous having to be polite and accommodating to a friend who came round and didn't appear to want to leave, wife went to bed and they didn't get the hint and eventually left at 12.30!! Her kids were away with her ex so she could lie in, but ours were upstairs and awoke at usual silly o'clock.

Sunday morning was a bit hectic as my daughter was in tears with a sore neck so we took her to the doctors - torticollis !!

So, we get on to football.

It was good that Liverpool won, the actual result, other than the win isn't too relevant just 3 points!!

During the week, I have been a little shocked and surprised at what would appear to be differing views on what a supporter is?

I have been a Liverpool supporter for 35 years, I support the club! I was quite horrified to be honest at the attitude of a so called fan last week on twitter in respect of a comment I made about Rafa Benitez. As my tweet was not an attack on the guy, but my opinion based on what I had seen and heard from a reporter on TV.
I was questioned in the tone of 'real fans' and 'ignorant' fans and told Rafa is one of us!!

Well, I have tried to put things into perspective and to how I see things, right or wrong these are my opinions, people can agree or disagree, but I don't see the point of attacking a fellow fan who has a different point of view, as I certainly wouldn't!!

Rafa is one of us! I think this has to be questioned or further clarified. I would not disagree that Rafa has a passion and a fondness for Liverpool football club and feels bitter and probably rightfully so about how he was treated at the club. But, is Rafa one of us for this reason, how interested was he in the club before he was appointed manager? Does he sacrifice days of his limited holiday allowance to go and watch the games and pay for his ticket and then probably 3 or 4 times that on actually getting to the ground and does he buy merchandise and new shirts etc etc every couple of years to support the club as many of us do. So is he one of us or does have some things in common with us? These are all just points of view and I dont necessarily think there is a right or wrong view.

This feeling was heightened during the first half of the Inter v Spurs game, alot of people abusing Rafa haters about how good inter were etc, along with a constant flow of retweets, but little or nothing was said 2nd half, where Inter failed to capitalise on a 4-0 lead against 10 men, with the final score being 4-3 and maybe another 5 minutes may have seen an equaliser.

We can speculate and voice our views for many many hours, but why does there have to be a divide between a manager or player hater, lover, superfan etc etc, when we all support Liverpool Football Club - is this what the tenure of Hicks and Gillett has done to us all? We all want the best for the club, very very few of us are privileged to accurate and proper inside information about what is going on at Anfield or Melwood but yet there seems to be alot of wannabee officianado's prepared to step in and abuse or attack another fans point of view!!

I seriously hope this changes very soon.

Friday, October 15, 2010

My Son's Birthday

I havent blogged for a while as I have just been so busy, trying to sort end of year accounts out, my computer went pop, doing the first VAT return and the continuing saga of Liverpool FC! I will blog my thoughts on this when the sale is complete, but there has been alot of good and not so good stuff to read and it's not all that easy to take in or understand the legal parts of some of it.

Becoming a Dad

8 Yeas ago today, my first child was born, a baby boy who we named Sebastian!! We decided on this name because we werent sure if it was a boy or girl so had a number of names shortlisted for both. The Mrs wasnt having any of the LFC suggestions I had put forward so we had about 4 for both!
Anyway, I decided that I had deserved a PS2 and went into Wollies in Dorking and as I walked out Sebastian Coe was stood outside with his kids, so as far as names are concerned we took that as I sign to help decide on the name.
The day was all booked in for a cesarian as one of his legs was hooked over the chord and he was upside down and back to front.
It all seems a bit hazy now, but the emotion you go through you can never imagine until you become a parent and a day, that some points will be engraved in my memory all the time I have! Love you Seb x.

I will hopefully be blogging a bit more now I am getting on top of work and the decision for LFC will hopefully be positive!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Another manic Monday

After yesterday I sincerely hoped today would be better and it has been so far.

I went to bed relatively early and slept very well and although I was in the office on my own today, I didn't feel too concerned with what may lay ahead for the day.

The day went by quite quickly with only the usual problems.

Seb seemed good when he got in from school and we had a bit of fun in front of the tv and reading before bed, so another positive there.

So, back to the goings on at Liverpool Football Club. I read a relatively in depth article on the BBC yesterday, firstly acknowledging the efforts of the Spirit of Shankly in staging a sit in after the sunderland game on Saturday where they estimated approximate 10,000 fans staying behind.

There is a deadline for the future of the club being decided, being 6th October. And as I see it at the moment the possible scenarios are.

Hicks and Gillett want in the region of £600m for the club.
Realistic values are being put at £420m
RBS need to recover their loan in the region of £240-£280m, variation due to unpaid repayments, fees etc.

So, the yanks are trying to refinance and we really don't want that to happen or we are seriously doomed. But no one in their right mind will offer them the £600m they are looking for.

So how determined are RBS to do right by the club? If a buyer is seriously interested, would they offer £420m in the knowledge that the bank can take ownership and recover the debt? Unlikely, so it could well go straight to the wire with buyers circling like vultures. What type of buyer will this scenario attract? Who knows, but ultimately if that is what the club is worth, disregarding the yanks valuation, then that is what it is worth, and it can only be better for the club and leave a potential buy with money for players and the stadium by save a few hundred mill!

The next few weeks are crucial for our club.


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Sunday, September 26, 2010

Base! how low can you go!

I am blogging today as to be honest I feel fucking terrible.

The last 2 weeks of my life have been a real shitstorm of ups and downs, and today from memory is my lowest and worst state of feeling I can ever recall.

There are 3 main things in my life, my family, home & work, and lfc. And right at this moment in time they are all shit! Now I have started to write this I am not even sure what to say. My 7 year old son is driving me to the point of I don't know what, I cannot, under any way shape or form get him to listen to me, although there is no doubt a part that its how I am doing it, but he just has this ability to get me, very quickly to the end of my tether by not listening, continually being a pain in the arse and I cannot think of a way to try and get through to him, so I have come away from my brother in laws to get away from everyone - now I can think but have no idea what to think! Am I not cut out for parenting, am I blowing it all out of proportion, is it me or is it him I don't know but I cannot deal with it.

Firstly I have a short fuse with him anyway, which has developed over the last 18 months because of this kind of thing, but he has managed, through not listening to what I ask him to do, to get me to pretty much breaking point Saturday and Sunday for the last 2 weekends. Right now, If it wasnt for the amount of love I have for him, my wife and daughter, I think I would leave! and to even have that thought really is not a good thing, and chuck in the added pressure of nr 3 due in Jan.

I am not going to drivvel on, as I cannot self analyse and cure this emotion or how I am feeling, so I will stop here and hope and I am sure I will feel better later.

Liverpool!

What can I say, 2 points from 3 games, Birmingham, Man Utd and Sunderland. not good enough. In my opinion, although you can say it is down to the players on the pitch, I think the problem is rooted deeper and until this ownership crap is sorted out it wont improve. Hicks and Gillet must go, we need new owners who know and understand about football and not soccer and they must care!

Work - well its just bloody hard!

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

The Signs are getting Stronger!!

Firstly, despite being a mad Liverpool supporter, last nights injury to Antonio Valencia was pretty horrific and shocking and not something you would wish upon any footballer, let alone someone capable of playing at such a high standard. He has done well to move from Wigan to Manure and establish a regular place in such a talented squad. I along with many I am sure wish him a speedy recovery.



Anyway - back to the title of my blog.

The signs are definitely getting stronger that I am getting older!!
I was carrying out my 'regular' eyebrow manicure yesterday as they tend to get a bit bushy for my liking, then you get the odd super hair that appears to be thicker and longer than all the others, or the odd super long one and the worst are the white or grey ones. These ones really worry me as I don't have a lot of hair left on top of my head as it is.
So I will first admit that I do pluck these long, wiry, or grey eyebrow hairs, well yesterday, i kept getting one just catch the edge of my field of view and it started to annoy me! I located it and plucked the bugger out.
So the next part of the routine is to have a quick look, check its shape, thickness, colour etc etc - this was all fine, until...... i thought I had realised why it hurt plucking it, being that I plucked 2! this was not the case, I actually had an eyebrow hair that had a split end!! A bloody split end, I could not believe it, not much hair on my head and now FML i have split end eyebrow hair, god knows what is happening t me next! probably arthritis! (I am only 39)

Bad Mood
I went to bed in a pretty bad mood last night. Not sure why but guess a part of it was tiredness, but I was trying to blog and take my go on words with friends against my wife, who was thrashing me too. We had just watched something on TV but I thought I would watch something else I had recorded for 10 minutes while I finished off. Then, the Mrs just turns off what I was watching and started looking through the sky planner! Fcuk this i thought and huffed off to bed!! I cant wait for the baby to come to get that proper sleep deprivation feeling back, then I;l be a really miserable sob!!

Monday, September 13, 2010

The Week Starts All Over Again

The week that is!! Although yesterdays match for Liverpool away to Birmingham was pretty much same old, same old as some of the dross that was turned out last season where we just cant seem to penetrated defences. Luckily, Reina was on form or we would have lost.
I think my main concern is why Roy Hodgson seems to be playing the team in the same way that Rafa did last season, same structure, same waster in the middle of the park. I think that Liverpool have managed to sign the only Brazilian footballer who got citizenship as he was born there while his parents were on holiday from Torquay. Lucas has had 1 decent game for us and that is all IMO.
Roy should shake it up, leave him out, bring Babel in, use Pacheco, Shelvey - Paulson also looked like he didn't want to pass the ball forward, it is just so very frustrating.
Please Roy, change it or we are in the shit!

Life
My wife's, cousins, Dad is seriously ill in hospital. I refer to him in that way as he divorced my wife's aunt after only a couple of years of marriage, due to his mother committing suicide as he married a non Jew! Something I can only imagine weighs heavy on the shoulders of those closest and from the age of 2 my wife's cousin was raised by her aunt.
I don't know too much detail, but from what I understand, the uncle had an influential life in the medical world, he travelled across Africa, living rough with a band of assistants carrying out operations to tribes people that no one else would do or had done, he was involved at a high level with the world aids council and with organisations that help people on a global scale from a medical perspective.
I may not have the facts right, hence I have not named him, but I guess the point is, for someone who helped so many, travelled so much and lived in many places around the world to help people it is very sad to see him in hospital, with stage 5 Parkinson's disease, pneumonia and cancer and for him to be told this and that he has days to live, is a sad thing.

Friday, September 10, 2010

TFI Friday!

At last its the end of a busy week.

The week started with the kids going back to school after the summer holidays, but with all the preparations even that wasn't easy. Seb started at junior school and he said he had butterflies for a week or so before hand, after his trip to Anfield on the Saturday before he went with his Carra scarf, Liverpool ruck sack and Liverpool p.e bag! Good lad!
Ellie was a little more chilled going to year 2 and staying in the infants school.

Work has been ok, with the week ending fortunately with a redesign of one of our website being available which is desperately needed.

Not sure why but been feeling a bit 'strange' the last couple of days, nothing specific but a tad lethargic, and a bit of discomfort in my tummy. I think I have eaten something that has not agreed with me, and I keep having waves where I feel I make be sick or get stomach cramps prior to a big pooh, but had neither!

I had my first night back at cubs after the summer break, training to be a leader! I had about 4 nights before the break and also have another leader starting, a female whom I am not too sure about.
I have come away feeling 'not sure' about the whole thing, more so because I can't be arsed to compete. My co-trainee leader- we'll call her J, is a real Johnny 2 shits. From the first time I met her I felt a competitive edge and I was so right. When we started and we were given our learner packs, she was already ahead of the game as she had her CRB certificate already, new about health and safety from work, then the next time she had already completed one module of the training book, but she is quick to tell me. She doesn't say hi Jez how are you? Have you managed to look at the manual, it's hi, how many modules have you completed? I have done module 1 already.
I don't see any rush or competitiveness in this, but we have been interviewed by the district commissioner etc, her interview a week before mine and we need to attend a module 1-3 training morning. I have been scheduled in for 2nd October. So tonight, J is straight up to me, so have you done any courses yet? Not yet, I reply I am going on 2nd October , J they had me down for that one but I had already booked myself in for tomorrows one! Ok cool, it just pisses me off.
There was also a term planning meeting last week that she went to but not sure why, but she made it known to me that she called to find out where it was, yet no one managed to call me! Just felt left out and unsure of why she is so competitive and it doesn't matter what or how many times i have done something, she has done it once more than me! Hence i have had 1 shit, she'd have had 2!

Not sure how much sense this makes but i feel better to get it out of my system, or exactly why it has made me feel like this as it shouldn't!



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Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Gerrard Triumphant for England

Despite there being no Liverpool to watch, there has been England! 2 wins out of 2 so far in the 2012 qualifiers.
I will put a disclaimer in at this point of "in my opinion" as it is! But, I think England's last 2 games have been 2 of the best under Capello, the disappointment and disgrace of the world cup is in the past and as a national side we need to move forward - simple! But more importantly Steven Gerrard is emerging as an excellent England captain and rightfully deserves the armband on merit - not as a stand in for Terry or Ferdinand. He has handled the media well also in respect of Shrek's off the pitch antics and supported his team mate's capabilities as a pleyer. On the pitch he has performed well, motivated the players and been the good player we know he is. But as importantly as this, Stevie and the team have performed well without Fat Frank! All these years of trying to play them together, one always out of position never worked and now this has been proven and is fact! Frank Lampard is a waste of space when playing for England, running round like a 7 year old wanting to take all the free kicks, penalties, corners etc etc, hopefully he will realise and retire from International football - oh and don't get me started on his goal celebrations!

And for anyone interested in a pretty good assessment of Rafa, click here to read more!

1st Day Back
I did say when I started this blog there were reasons for me doing it! One to help be dump my thoughts and feelings if I need to about stuff relevant to me, but may ring bells with others out there!
Well, I go back to see my counsellor today, or pshycotherapist or whatever people want to call her! I am looking forward to sharing the revelation of the 'My Logicality' blog and talking through with her how I am trying to use it and how it is supposed to help me.
I'm not too sure if or how it is working though, as I still lose my temper at appropriate moments, maybe not as bad, but my counting is getting really good from 1-10 as that helps! But as I never had an anger problem in the first place, in my opinion, its tricky to see the improvements, but whatever, working from home, a wife, 2 kids, another on the way, running a business, sometimes its just as therapeutic to get out and talk to someone who wont form an opinion on me - even of they do think I'm a tosser - lol (just kidding NC if you read this!!)

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Thanks Carra

Yesterday was a great day out! We left home at about 7.30 am and were parked near Anfield by about 11.30, one stop on the way and a bit of congestion but nothing too bad.
I was surprised at how many people were already around Anfield even at that time, but a tribute to Carra's popularity.
I took Seb into the shop to get him a shirt and scarf, which ended up being a home shirt and goalies kit and a rucksack for school! We definitely picked the wrong queue which took 45 minutes to get served, while all the others were going about 3 times our speed.
I think at this pony Seb was a bit overwhelmed with so many people, all liverpool fans in one place.
We got to our seats to see the end of the exhibition game, which the people in front of us informed us had paid £12,500 per team to play, raising £25,000 for the 23 foundation.
Then the players came out to warm up and what a surprise to see Stevie G come out! He only played an easy 15 minutes but a great gesture and added treat to all those who were there and expected him not to be there due to his England duties.
The game was good entertainment, all played in the spirit of the day, great goal by Garcia, Babel and Joe Cole there and from what I saw of shelvey I was impressed.
I thought I heard them say that there was about 36,000 people there! Not a bad turnout by anyones standards.
But we got home at about 8.30pm and Seb said he had the best day od his life, he was shattered and had been a good lad all day and can't wait to go again.
Its a bit scary when you consider that we were out for 13hrs for 90 minutes of football, the cost of the tickets, petrol, club shop and other bits an pieces does make for an expensive trip, but as we don't get a chance to go often, all worth while.

Thanks Carra.


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Friday, September 3, 2010

Jamie Carraghers Testimonial Tomorrow

And I cannot wait!! I am taking my 7 yr old son Seb for his first trip to Gods Country - Anfield. I figured for a 7 year old it should be fun, should be a good atmosphere and some good banter to add to a great day out! I am under instructions however to get a rucksack for his new school and a new football shirt, so all being well should get there with plenty of time to have a look around the shop and savour the atmosphere, and get ready to boo Michael Owen! lol.

Badminton
I played badminton last night, the first time in a few weeks due to holiday, Liverpool being on, and I was a bit concerned about my 'scar' bleeding from Tuesday but it was fine! However, the last game I went to play a shot and had this almighty pain shoot through the ball of my foot, I have no idea what I stepped on, but it had that feeling like when you step on a plug! Today, it is very very painful

News in General
My wife had her 20 week scan yesterday, accompanied by myself and the 2 kids! All went well and seems good, it looks like it is going to be a baby girl!! This was met with a great reaction from my daughter, to one of total disappointment from my son! who's words were along the line of "we have enough girls in the house, Mum, Ellie who is a pain, 9 girl chickens and even the dog is a girl, well I hope she is a tom boy!" Happy Days!

Analytics
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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Minor Surgery!

Well, I had to try and make it sound more dramatic than it really was. I had this skin tag at the top of my leg, that over the last year has grown! Well last week I decided it was time to get it chopped off.
I went to see the doc last Friday and she took great delight in telling me she loved 'whipping' ones like that off! Shit!
So at 3pm today I went back, I had to wait as the operation had to be carried out in the nurses room, fair enough! Well, I lay on the operating table and the tag is high on my leg, so I rolled my shorts up to give access, but I wasn't aware that the nurse would hold them, conveniently for her resting her hands across my bits - well I wasn't expecting the injected anaesthetic, more serious than I had expected I was thinking.
That soon took effect then the doc was standing there with a soldering iron looking thing, said, you may smell burning flesh, but don't worry! Ffftft ffffft fffft rising smoke, vial smell, there you go mr turner, all done. Weyhey, not much bleeding, but take it easy for a couple of days incase the stalk does bleed, then apply pressure. I am officially getting old.

A pic from my holiday!






Thought I would throw this in as I would like to be back in the warm again.

Transfer window closes.

Thank god, maybe things will settle down, lots of slagging off for not getting another striker, but would we have got anyone better than what we have? Or just added depth? At least it's over now so we can get on with the season and climb the table.



Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Holiday Blues

Well its been 3 days since returning from my holiday in Spain!
Work all seems ok, other than the issues I needed to resolve before I went away, still need to be resolved - but I knew that anyway and I also have to work out how to take on the book keeping, should be interesting if nothing else!
I was amazed to see how green the garden was when we got back, so whilst we were enjoying hot, dry sunny weather in Spain, it must have rained quite a bit here.

Liverpool

Well we lost 3-0 to Man City on Monday night, not the best way to end my first day back after holiday. What happened? I thought we looked like we lost focus and concentration for some bizarre reason.
I think we do have players that are good enough, but they don't try hard enough or have a confidence issue or just are different to Liverpool legends of the past in their approach. Why wait to go 2-0 down before really having a go?
In addition, the commentators drooling over Gareth Barry and James Milner makes me want to be sick! Barry is a waste of space I don't know how he plays for England or what people see in him. Then you get the "city have thumped Liverpool 3-0" crap, well you only need to look at the stats to see that they actually only had 3 shots on target and it happened that they all went in! Reina did not have 1 save to make - fact!
Yet again, we don't get any luck, When Stevie hit the post and it came back and hit Hart, if that was us, it would have gone in a la v Arsenal!
I also don't get why some people are giving Hodgson a hard time and harping on about Rafa! Yes he did ok, but, if Istanbul wouldn't have happened it would all be so different. Rafa didn't finish top 4 in his 1st season or his last, he made amazingly negative substitutions at times that I never understood - so all I say is let Roy get on with it, 2 down, 36 to go!

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Monday, August 23, 2010

Almost time to go home!

Well its now Friday night and we leave on Sunday back to cloudy England!
So far, the holiday has definitely been a success in terms of relaxing, which was the main aim.
The kids have continued to be pretty angelic, if you give them a bit of slack for being kids, definitely no complaining.
There isn't really an awful lot to do here, and that isn't a complaint! There is more than enough close by to get by with a mix of Spanish and English shops, with a large supermarket no more than 20 mins drive away. The pace of life is slow and relaxed. Really love the villa, the kids have only mentioned going to the beach once, as with the pool they are more than content and their swimming has improved dramatically, we're already considering when we can come back! Need to get cheaper flights.

Apologising!

I do it quite frequently (sorry but mrs is walking around with nothing on but her kaks!, not for my benefit but because it is hot!) if I say something wrong, or even if I don't but what I have said has upset or hurt some one because of what I have said. That's not meant in an arrogant or self righteousness way, but in a sympathetic and understanding way as I don't like or intend to upset people and feel it is the decent thing to apologise
However, it isn't the easiest thing to do, but I feel it is a good and almost cleansing thing to apologise. But some people don't, and that includes people close to me. They don't seem to get my reasoning and that my apology is my admission of being in the wrong, WRONG!
My stubborn streak would make me almost demand an apology if I feel I was owed one, which in turn would prevent me from making any form of apology to them - this would eat away at me. In the last few months I have learnt to accept that my way isn't the only or the right way to deal with these situations and that while I feel it is important for me to apologise, but that it is more important to accept that other peoples apologies may not be verbal but silent, to accept that, not demand it and move on.


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Time flies when your having fun

Well, having got the first day, including the travelling out of the way the last 2 days have been a real joy!
After the first day, although I knew the kids hadn't really been that bad, I did feel an element of trepidation! However, over night the angels travelled to nr lake Venuela and possessed the children to their normal selves, in fact better than their normal selves if I am honest.
I was also anxious about the holiday and how I would cope with no Internet for a week, a concept that I was battling with for a while, leaving the business and just being able to relax. I know the business is in trustworthy hands and I am actually managing to chill. Reading a book, i have another one to try and help me to draw, of which I am not very good at, but hope i may find a way to relax and express things in drawing- potential for a shitty day to look like a pile of shit is very much a possibility!
All we have done is pop to the local shops, eaten out a couple of times, been to a big shopping centre, swam, chilled, read - about the most relaxing I have been since my honeymoon in October 2001.

Glad to hear that Spurs lost tonight and may they lose in the return leg as well, I have no time for any of the Redknapp, tv personality stuff, and Harry is an underhanded judas!


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1st Day in Spain

I am writing this on Sunday 15th August, having almost completed our first day in Spain. It was an early start, up at 5 to make sure the kids we're ready to go, go to my parents to drop the dog in and for my Dad to drive us to the airport for 7 am.
Kids loved the flight although their hearing is poor as they don't seem to be listening to a word either Mel or I say, I accept an element of this is excitement but an element of this is also obnoxiousness, in my opinion. My wife is just able to put it all down to tiredness and hunger and break from the routine, whereas it just winds me up a treat, makes me angry and just makes me want to be at home, considerably better off having not worked my ass off to pay for the holiday, less stressed and also like a crap parent.
Not saying I am, but this kind of thing makes me feel as if I must be doing something wrong, or nit getting the point with the whole thing - this added with the stress that nr 3 is due along in January just completely does my head in!
Still it is almost the end of the day, I am sat on the verandah, looking across the hills as the sunsets, which I guess could be worse. Tiredness, frustration, anger, dissapointment, excited, happy, all in a day!

Liverpool v Arsenal

Well this hasn't helped matters much either today! Couldn't watch the game but listened to it on 5 live, should Cole have been sent off? I will see on MOTD later, but doesn't sound like he played well, Ngog scored again in a first team match, with only 10 men and then lucky lucky cheating get on my tits Arsenal get a Jammy og at the end. I don't think liverpool have had an ounce of lady luck in years, whereas Arse, chelski & manc have, regularly, and in some respects these decisions ARE the difference in winning or not winning the title.

Its been a long day!!

Friday, August 13, 2010

Happy To Help

My arm hurts and my shoulder from humping quite a heavy chest of drawers up stairs into my daughters bedroom, with help from my Brother in law.
Some time's in his day and age it seems to becoming more of a rare occurrence for someone to help, in the help sense that is, not in the yeah sure for a tenner way.
When I was out collecting the drawers, it looked like it was going to start raining and it was tricky getting the car close enough without blocking the road, we left the car and were carrying the drawers out, past some tables out side of a nero's coffee shop, it was quite clear where we were going and two people sat down at the table that was very close to us and then promptly dumped their bags in the only space we had to walk through. Now considering they literally sat down seconds before we got to them and they could see us, the look they gave was astounding at having to move their bags! Maybe they should try and be more helpful and less selfish, it feels good to help people!

Anyone looking to build an extension?

I have been working on a website the last couple of years that is just about completed to help everybody in the process of building and managing their own home extension.
In today's climate where less people are moving and more people extending it is important to understand how the process works so you get the most out of it.
The idea behind the website CostClick is to help people understand terms that are used, how to put a tender package together, how to find and manage builders. But the best part, well I think it is anyway is the onlne cost calculator. By simply entering a few dimensions, you can get a budget, in either basic or detailed format of what it is likely to cost for your extension. At the end of the day, the financial side is important to all of us, but costclick will help you to avoid the pitfalls of spending unnecessary money by just being organised.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

England Friendly - Waste of Time

England have a friendly this evening, for what? Other than getting their first appearance since their poor world cup performance out of the way there really is no point to it.
All the Premier League Clubs have been busy in pre-season, or started in Europe and now they are expected to 'perform' for their country.
I think this is a big FAIL for the FA, whatever FIFA etc say or believe, we should have the right to protect not just our players, but our league as this time away from their clubs set up will only detract from their first game of the season.

Headaches
I tend to suffer from frequent, although not that bad headaches. It doesn't really worry me that much to be honest as I put it down to not wearing my glasses all the time when working at the computer and stuff like that, as well as stress from work!
However, this week, I feel I have been stressed as I am in the office on my own, working long hours etc yet I have only today had a headache, only slightly which has now gone and that's without any tablets!!

Broken Sword
You may have tried this on pc or playstation etc, but it is now available as a game on the Ipad. It really is quite good, interactive and interesting. Only been playing it a short while but loving it. Its different too and the the bird has quite a saucy French accent!
I know the Ipad isn't cheap, but the playability and quality of a lot of the game is really good (not all of course), but when you compare these to a game on a nintendo DS or PSP where a cheap game is around a tenner, if not £25, you can get some really top notch stuff for less than £5.
In addition, the HD resolution of the screen is impressive, as you are generally only arms length or relatively close it is almost like watching a 38" tv thats 8ft away!

Monday, August 9, 2010

Sometimes I hate Mondays

Mondays are always a hard day to start the week off after a nice weekend with the family. I have a week to go through and sort out stuff for my annual 5 day holiday, business is picking up and believe me I am not complaining about that after a couple of quiet months.
Yet today, I have struggled to get into it! there are problems with stock from a supplier, it happens so often in relation to this one Laura Ashley tile that they import I have no concept of what their buyers do or how they constantly allow it to go out of stock and usually there is a 3-6 week delay. I don't get the logic behind it at all, still there you go.

Books arrived
English to Spanish dictionary and phrase book and Drawing for dummies! yep that's me - I am so unnaturally creative with anything arty it pains me to try. Never had any interest in it as a kid, was always more interested in sport I guess, but decided to try and learn. Have a good app for the ipad to use and having seen some of the stuff by Kyle Lambert done on one I have no excuse for turning out junk!! (other than not being able to draw!), but I have no idea how to make an eye look like an eye or a nose like a nose, so this next week could be the moment that all changes. My plan is to be able to draw a recognisable Steven Gerrard portrait! asking too much maybe - probably.

Ooops!
Up and out of bed at 6am today as is pretty much normal, but could hear this noise that I couldn't make out where or what it was, but it did have an element of familiarity about it, I looked out of the bedroom window to see a flow of water running down the drive - shit! I ran downstairs and out the back door to see the hose had partly disconnected from the connector, spraying at full whack water up the side of the porch and running down the drive!! Although I wasn't over the moon, I was More relieved that it was me not turning the tap off after cleaning the cars than a burst pipe.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Mother and 12yr Old Daughter stab each other?

These kind of news stories are so unbelievably hard to understand! How on earth can a Mother stab her 12yr old daughter and as equally shocking, how on earth can a 12yr old get into a stabbing fight with her mother, both are in hospital in a critical position more bbc.

This reminded me very much of the Fordingbridge, New Forest incident a couple of weeks ago. It is so sad and hard to understand what can make these things happen, but I did hear a very good doctor on the radio a week or so ago and have tried to summarise what I heard the specialist says makes these things happen.

Apparently it starts as a mild form of depression, the kind that we all can get, the depression worsens over time, at each of these levels of worsening, different people deal with it in different ways, by talking to people, counselling, or just pull themselves out of it, so the numbers of people that get to the bad state is minimal.
It is 3 times more common in men than women, as men whether rightly or wrongly tend to take on and in turn burden themselves with the responsibility of taking care of themselves and their family, this more often than not in a financial way. So at the moment, with the longevity and constant media discussion of the recession and how bad it is and how long it may be till it all ends etc etc, this just makes the whole situation worse for them.
As the level of depression gets quite bad, so it starts to physically effect the person, anxiety, panic attacks, unable to sleep etc, then all of these things make living normally even more testing, and also when it gets to this stage the rational and irrational parts of the brain can gel into each other making it almost impossible for the person to see the difference between them, all these things add to the confusion and emotional state.
Apparently its also very difficult to understand these people to help them because you need to get to a similar level to be able to understand their rationale to help etc. A bit like if you were diving in the sea, and all your breathing gear etc was set to a max depth of 150ft and so is everyone else's on the boat, as you go deeper, the other people on the boat cant get you and also then risk the same dangers by going deeper than the 150ft.
So as this very low self esteem and depression is reached the triggers that set people off are more and more minor. There are then basically 2 ways the person reacts, they are either inwardly destructive (suicide) or outwardly destructive (murder or attempted murder) or in the cases that have been on the news recently both.

Holiday is Looming!
Only a week to go now and we will just be taking off from Southampton airport to Malaga! Kids are getting very excited having never flown before and we are pretty much organised, although I am sure the anxiety will increase through the week. Most disappointed I wont be able to see Liverpool's first game of the season Live, but the villa does have a British sky box with freeview so Match of the Day it will have to be!

Friday, August 6, 2010

LIverpool Triumphant

Last nights 2-0 win, (4-0 agg) was an extremely enjoyable game of football to watch, ok so the opponents werent really up to all that much, but they were a professional side and some of our big names were nack playing and some new ones.
Great to see Joe Cole, Danny Pacheco, Jovanovic Gerrard etc etc, we moved the ball around very well and should have scored more.
As a Liverpool fan of 35yrs it does pain me somewhat to hear the Rafa lovers still bangin' on about how it should be him there and not Roy, move on! If the Turnaround in Istanbul hadn't happened would he have been held in such high regard? and that wasn't all Rafa's doing, it had something to do with the 11 LFC players on the pitch!
I'm also not sure why people compare Ngog with Torres in the way they do! Torres has an amazing strike rate in the Premier League of 1 goal in every 4 shots! That's good!! But people never seem to talk of them playing alongside each other only as a backup?

Stevie's 1st goal of the Season



Rude Customers 2nd Installment
Miss rude from yesterday's blog called again now she has her tiles, great I thought. However she then went on to ask when we were coming out to measure up and what tiler would we recommend, all for sending 3 samples for £4.99.
Not only was her attitude wrong she obviously has major issues in translating into her native tongue!


New Table
I managed to get out this morning and pick up a new console table for the lounge to match the rest of our furniture is here waiting when my wife gets back from her break, then a week to prepare for our weeks holiday in Spain!!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

2nd Leg at Anfield Tonight

Tonight will hopefully be a great night for Liverpool FC. Not the toughest of opponents and we already have a 2-0 lead from the 1st leg.
It's greatness will be more about our first competitive home game of the season and being able to see our stars tread the hallowed Anfield turf and show themselves to us, I am sure that we are all hoping to see Joe Cole make his debut, Stevie, Jamie, Nando, Dirk etc will hopefully be there too!
The match itself will hopefully provide a couple of hours distraction from the pretty constant media hype about the clubs ownership!

Interesting Reading
I have just started reading a book entitled "how to talk so kids will listen and listen so kids will talk". When you have kids, there isn't a manual and trying to understand them isn't always that easy. With my 6&7 yr old they are doing a great job of arguing and stating their point, so I figured maybe we're doing something wrong! Responsible parenting is such a responsibility!!

Why are some people so damn rude
There really is no need for it, we have a customer of 'European' origin, I am sure of that, not 100% sure what country, but her tone and manners are so abrupt, she asked how thick a tile is, to which I replied between 9 & 10mm, depending on where you take the measurement, "ar vell, eez it 9 or eez it 10", well as I said it depends what part of the tile you measure "so, basically you don't know", well you get your sample hopefully you'll see what I mean, was my reply, when I actually felt like saying why don't you just f**k off you rude cow!
She then called back asking when her sample would be delivered, I said tomorrow or Friday "vell zat eez not good enuff, I need to know" yeh right love your going to get me bending over backwards to help you out! So pointless.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Liverpool Ownership Talks Continue

As the screen pops up all day long on tweetdeck there are a large amount of tweets relating to the take over situation of our beloved club, Liverpool FC.
There are, as always conflicting reports about the possible new owner, what he is prepared to offer or of his valuation of the club, but the bit's that interest me most are the comments about the owner or consortium making Liverpool the biggest club in the world, one to be rivaled by all, bring it on is what I say, I will refer and credit a number of LFC blogs over time, but Justin Heron's Kop That is always well written and informative!
It is so important that the current owners who's name's I cannot type to avoid my anger rising, go, no one likes them, they are lairs and thieves and are really trashing our club, historically the best in England! even wikipedia says this.
The current player situation is looking good, even with the current budget, Roy seems popular and the players seem happy, may it continue and improve under new ownership very soon.

Win one of 900 free fridges
Yes! apparently its all true, the best to register for this is to visit Martin Lewis' money saving website follow the instructions on this page and keep your fingers crossed!

Pending Holiday.
In about 10 days I am due to go away on holiday with my wife and kids to Spain. This is the first time we have flown in about 10 year's and the first time with the kids who are 6 & 7.
I have never had a problem with flying, but I am a little anxious this time. But more so about the kids.
They are being a real pair of little buggers at the moment, arguing and fighting with each other and the girl is the worse as she is so strong minded that she can explain her reasoning for all of her decision's.
I find it quite stressful preparing for a family holiday in as much that I need to make sure everything is sorted for the animals, the dog is ok as she goes to my Parent's, but we have chickens, guinea pigs and a bearded dragon. In addition, that I have handed sufficient notes over to a colleague for looking after the business. I know that everyone understands people are entitled to holidays etc, but, that doesn't stop you from hoping or wondering that that rare 'urgent and needs your attention and only your attention' message or task arrives in!!
I am mentally preparing for the holiday harder than I am physically!!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Cashback

I was looking around the Internet earlier on today to get travel insurance for my family holiday to Spain in a couple of weeks time.
I first visited the company who I have my house insurance with, quote £48.00. Obviously not happy with the first option I tried my car insurance company but they didn't do any travel insurance. Ah, I though, I will try the post office! A bit better at £40.00, this rates are for the family I hasten to add. Then came the discovery! ( probably everyone else knows about it but I didn't as no bugger told me!) topcashback.co.uk.
Basically with this site you need to register which is free, you then search for what you are looking for and different products with different suppliers, when you have chosen what you want ready to buy you will be shown the cash back value of the product! Anyway, insurance £13, cashback 17% - bargain!!
The site then keeps your cash back for you to buildup and use to get yourself something basically for free! Excellent.


Liverpool bids
Kenny Huang in the driving seat - apparently! In the course of 24 hrs it is amazing as a Liverpool supporter to see the amount of news coverage that the club takeover has had. It was all very quiet, but then all of a sudden this supposed billionaire Chinese guy is buying, then soon after that isnt the case as the board have 5 or 6 offers on the table they are considering - yet we hadnt heard anything about any of them. The we read Kenny isnt all that rich and doesnt have the funds himself to buy the club, it is so tiresome! We want Hicks and Gillett out and soon.


Double dip
Well theres plenty of depressing and morbid news around pretty constantly, the whole country is feeling it and to be honest, I walk around a high street sometimes and wonder how some people can look so bloody happy!!
The latest buzz word the US and the UK top financirs seem to be using is Double Dip recession, and it scares the shit out of me as to what this means and the effect it will have on the country, my business my family etc etc. Fingers crossed it can somehow be avoided.




Thank you for reading

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Logic

Logic

One of the reasons I decided to start this blog was to help kind of council myself, to get things off my chest that I want to because they are bugging me or making feel in a certain way.
I have had counselling, as a way to try and find the answers to some of my feelings that made me behave in a certain way, but most importantly the triggers that really made me angry, not that I felt I needed anger management of course.
At my first session it became quite clear that I did have issues with triggers, my amazing ability to not be able to let things go easily, then one thing, however minor or major would happen and there was my trigger! My reaction would not be in perspective to the incident, in fact to my family seemed completely irrational - why? Simple, I would add a number of events together, that in my mind I could connect and therefore multiplying my reaction by 4,5,6 or more times.

Another factor in this is my logic! I don't perceive myself as highly intelligent or complicated, but if anything I try to keep things relatively simple. I.e if you go through the alphabet, I start with A and 26 letters later arrive at Z. My background from leaving school is as a quantity surveyor in the building industry, so there are set logical procedures you follow when building houses and that's kind of how my logic works.When people or procedures don't make sense to me, because it hasn't been done how I would do it, which in my mind is usually the most straight forward way, it frustrates me - and so starts my logic head asking why?
It is these things i want to write about, over time, as and when I feel like it and maybe these thoughts will be similar to how other people think about things, reassuring me that I am somewhere near just a normal guy! And although we're guys we still have feelings right!

Chopper 2

I have seen these app publicised couple of time over the last couple of days, so I thought I would give it a try. It is very good IMO.why?
Firstly it cost money so you expect it to be something worth buying, the loading screens look good too! But, if you have an iPhone or iPod and an iPad this is when it becomes very good. You can load the app onto your iPad and iPhone or iPod, turn on your blue tooth, and hey presto, your phone becomes a wireless remote control for the game! How cool is that?

Apart from that not done much else other than paint the kitchen and pop into Farnham, although I only live about 20 minutes from there only ever popped in there a couple of times for something specific, but had a good mooch today and quite enjoyed it, so I will be back there at some point.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Decisions Decisions

Athletics

Is it really that hard for the Great Britain mens 100m relay team to actually pass the baton from one guy to the next? Appears so, is the decision when to pass it, or grab it that bloody hard? Well they screwed up in the european championships, like they have many times before, so I am sure they will so it again!

Bloody Jedward

In my last post I mentioned that I turned BBC breakfast off because of these idiotic Irish twins getting a slot.
I could not believe it when they also managed to get their stupid haircuts onto big brother. These guys really are just a useless pair of bollocks, they can't sing, they can't dance, they can't mime and they are just extremely annoying, doing yet another cover version, so they cant even write or perform original songs.
What ever do people see in them? I do feel it unfair that they are probably earning a lot of money being a couple of dicks. #justsaying!

Meet The Wallee





This gizmo looks pretty smart! Click on the ipad image to visit the site where you can buy and find out more!
The iPad has been in the news a bit this week with microsoft's top man Steve Ballmer expressing his concern on how popular and how many ipads have been sold, with the words grumpy and envious being banded around!
Apps for the iPhones and ipads get quite a bit of publicity, but this chap probably won't. Such apps like air video, tvcatchup and BBC iplayer, as examples all allow you to stream tv or video direct from your wireless network or the Internet. However, holding or positioning your iPad isn't always that easy or convenient. With this fella you get a stylish protective case and a wall mounting, fix the wall mounting securely to your wall or surface you wish to mount your iPad on, then when your ready, clip your iPad in on either portrait or landscape, extra wall fixings can be bought.
Things like like this are adding great flexibility on how the iPad can be used, making it more productive and growing the distance between them and their competitors who are trying to catch up. I can't believe it doesn't have a wifi recharging system built in though?

This is the first blog posted from my iPad using the blogpress app.

Friday, July 30, 2010

Liverpool Win First Comepetitive Game of Season

FC Rabotnicki 0 - Liverpool 2
It eventually arrived last night, away to Rabotnicki, with David Ngog scoring twice. A well taken opportunist first goal and a class 2nd goal, well played. You can watch a couple of minutes highlights here, courtesy of The Jepson Journal Highlights
I thought Liverpool played well, good commitment, good movement and passing - I though Aquilani looked a little quiet, but he was still solid - overall a good game.
More good news today being that Joe Cole will make his appearance in the friendly this weekend.


BBC Breakfast News

I had to turn this off this morning for one simple fact (other than they constantly get the weather reports wrong) as they had Jedward on. What a couple of idiots these two are, it is a shame that morons like this can gain publicity and earn money, and probably too much of it because they chanced their arm in an x-factor audition.
The kids are stupid, they have crap hair, they are so far up their own backsides they actually think they are good? Why? And for them to get a slot on BBC breakfast news promoting their new album is pretty poor - shame on you BBC!

Peace and Quiet

Well, my Wife and kids have gone to Devon for a week while I stay at home, paint the kitchen units and sand and lacquer the worktops and work!! This is all good though as as much as I love my mother in law in that 'family so you have to ' kind of way and she can be sweet, to spend a week with her and her twin sister isn't my idea of a holiday!
Instead, I will have to stay at home, watch what I like, eat what I like and do what I like - and lie in!! all with just myself and the dog for company - the chickens don't count as they are not allowed in the house.

Apps

If you have an iphone, ipod touch, ipad etc etc the whole Apps thing really is a minefield! some of the best ones seem to be free, some of the ones you buy should be free, and some are just crap so end up getting deleted as quickly as they get downloaded.
I tend to make a judgement from two sources that I follow on Twitter, @whichiphoneapp and @appadvice, both seem to have fairly good recommendations and keep you advised of 'price drops'.
At the moment, would recommend Firefox home, angry birds, imdb, flixster, air video, harbor master, shrek kart, twitterific, vouchercloud, broken sword.

Thursday, July 29, 2010

First Competitive Match of the Season.



Liverpool F.C

Well, tonight is our first competitive game of the season in the inter toto ldv windscreen shield vase europa league or something!! It's not exactly where we want to be, but hopefully we can win it and qualify for the champions league next season!
Pretty sick and fed up with all the crap transfer rumours at the moment and the sooner the transfer window closes the better as far as I am concerned.
Pretty unhappy that the game is on a pay per view channel as well, so for us to watch our beloved club put out a reserve team, we have to pay a fiver or something, bring on a good free stream. This one can be good! http://www.firstrow.net/
I haven't seen this version of the new kit before?


Trip to Brighton

Yesterday, I had a business meeting in Brighton which was fine, but on the way back, instead of going the quick route, went a more scenic route through West Sussex into Hampshire.
I must say it was quite enjoyable, and I was amazed at how many big houses and estates there were, I didn't realise I lived so close to so many affluent people - where did I go wrong?

Ear

My ear is still sore!! its been about 4 days now and I have the most painful, and massive (but been assured its tiny) spot in my ear.
Two problems, one it bloody hurts and I cant see it or squeeze it and secondly I am paranoid that I have developed ear hair and have an issue with ingrowing ear hair! Sure I'll forget about it soon enough.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Why do people do it?

Surprisingly I was one of the first to wake up today, 5.30am! but luckily didn't feel too tired.

Fordingbridge, New Forest
Living in Hampshire, you always tend to tune in when you hear a name that you recognise as being 'local' - national news today a tragic story of what appears to be a father stabbing his 2yr old daughter, 1 yr old daughter and wife, then hung himself - why on earth do people do such unbelievable things, what makes this man feel he has the right to take his children's and wife's lives in this way? or how miserable or desperate must he have been to have felt the need to do this? Tragic, shocking, sad, ...... read more

Anyway, onto something considerably less serious! back to web developers! Having sent a frustrated email to him at the end of yesterday I received a reply starting "I am doing my best here, it's not as simple as it sounds" well nothing ever is matey! but your colleague went on holiday having caused the problem, so please resolve it as a matter of urgency!!

It is day 2 of the Summer holidays, and I think I am going mad! The kids were out wit the in laws this afternoon, 2-4.30pm! I don't have the best of relationships with that part of the family, to the point where I haven't spoken to them since the last time I saw them about 3 weeks ago - which, considering they live the closest is good going.

This is due to family politics, expectations, respect whatever you want to call it. Apparently I snubbed them last time they arrived as I didn't say hello, (roll out the red carpet, shake hands and give a strong embrace!) I was actually eating my tea and they were simply round to baby sit for an hour while we went to the school for an open evening.

This lack of greeting was made aware to me by my wife, so I trotted up the garden to say hello, but father in law walked around the other side of the veg patch so I politely chatted to the step mother in law! However, this constituted in their opinion as 'I went up the garden but didn't say hello' - tossers in my opinion. Anyway, we came back an hour later both in laws watching Wimbledon, with both kids crying upstairs as they had been told not to come out of their rooms! I was gob smacked and yes I do like to be a good father, show discipline, manners etc, but to treat a 5 & 7 year old like they are at a military boarding school because family simply cant be arsed to baby sit properly due to inconvenience is unnecessary.

Well fortunately today I only had to open the door to one of them when they dropped the kids back at 3.40pm - under strict instruction mmmm weird time, as they said they would be back at 4.30pm, apparently they mixed the time ups 3.40 -4.30 at least they didn't have them long which would have pleased them, hardly worth having them at all.

Well the kids were back 2 mins and arguing about black marks and gold stars on how well they behaved - after apparently being so good when they out FML!

Noisy Crickets

These little buggers make so much bloody noise! We have a bearded Dragon and his name is Dexter, very very sweet lizard - its food isn't as sweet unfortunately. Meal worms he likes, but morios he loves - if you haven't seen these things like a like big fat shiny looking maggots, but Dexter bless him, loves them (they kind of crunch when he eats them and puss like innards come out nice!) But the crickets he eats - we have sorted out keeping them alive and fresh - food! So we give the crickets an old apple core, or spinach leaf which they love, but boy they grow quick and shed their skin - but the worst part is they get bloody noisy, it sounds like the Amazon or something at night in my boys room.

Think I have harped on enough this post, laters!

Monday, July 26, 2010

Monday 26th July 2010 - Ellies Birthday

Ok, so it was an early start "Daddy, Daddy it's 5 dot dot 39 and its my birthday, can we get up now" the dot dot being as in 5:39. I guess it's only once a year but that doesn't add some sleep onto my quota for the night! I did set the kids up downstairs on the TV for an extra half an hour of rest to prepare for a usual Monday, then remembered it was the first full on day of the Summer holidays, so not a normal Monday in that respect!


Great fun with Ellie opening her presents, till Seb pounced on a book before it was even fully out of the wrapping paper to see if he had it, which caused an upset, and me saying to him about how many times I ask him not to get involved in other peoples business!!

Other than that the day has been ok!! Mel and kids did take some home grown courgettes next door for the neighbour and left the front door and gate open, so the dog trotted out for a nose!

Twitter! I love it @jezzat Started tweeting about a year and a half ago and find it quite addictive, like the short text stuff, as its easier to pick up and walk away from, I havent got into the facebook stuff really, seems to take up too much time, but hey, some of the guys on twitter can keep me entertained for ages too! more on them at a later time.

I love my gadgets and techy stuff, and Liverpool FC, theres always some stupid rumours going around, which adds to the excitement I guess, but 32 years a fan and it seems to be getting more intense as I get older!

Web Developers

A breed I struggle to understand at times, I sent an email at 12 to one to sort out the fact that orders are not being sent when an order comes, in - I eventually get a reply at 4.15pm ish acknowledging my email, but yet nothing gets done! I dont get why, when its their fault they see no urgency to get it done! it takes me ages to manually process them and also the fact that customers are not getting a receipt emailed to them to check what they have ordered!

Buried a Bird

Tried to save a small birds life last night, gave it some chick crumbs, straw to sleep on and water, but it sadly passed away in the night, buried it earlier when the kids were out R.I.P small birdy!

Introduction


As I reach my mid-life crisis, I can't help but wonder what it is that is affecting my moods - yes I have them, often and I am male! But I am left wondering is this normal, or is this what happens when you get to 40 years of age.

I rarely plan more than a few days in advance for a majority of things, as I don't see the point, but weeks or months in advance for other things, I can be meticulous about keeping things in the calender and sharing it so the better half knows what I am doing and when, but with somethings I don't and rely on my memory, which if it fails, give myself a hard time for not writing it down!

I also wanted to write a book or something, so maybe this is it!! There is no real plan, but simply to express my logic and thinking in every day life and situations that effect me to see if they are similar, normal, abnormal or maybe it will just help me to get whatever it is off my chest to free my mind up.

Oh well, if your reading this thanks, lets see what happens!!